Today I fucked up things with my bestfriend and maybe I’m just blowing this out of proportion but we have always been brutally honest but today she was trying on clothes because she has to go to the Synagog tomorrow for her world religions class, I told her that the nice clothes she was trying on didn’t look good. She got really upset with me and started going on and on about how she just wants to be as skinny as she used to be. She tried on one last thing and I genuinely thought that it looked super good on her! The only change I made was untucking her shirt from her skirt and I looked very goof like she was a business woman or something and she just kept talking shit about her looks. I completely understand about how much it sucks to not be the size you used to be I gained 30 pounds in less than 3 months… I just want her to know how truly beautiful she really is. She looks good no matter how “big” she is. I love her to death and WE will take on this weight loss journey together. As cliche as that really is I completely mean it. I’m here for her through thick and thin.
and to you
You know I love you to death, I hate it whenever you just keep everything to yourself. I told you to not keep anything from me especially if it’s between us. You said it was okay but it really wasn’t I don’t want you to put away your feelings show me how you feel. If you need someone. I just really want you to understand that I love you more than anything in the world. Don’t just walk away from me please. I will definitely give you your time that you need. Just know how proud I am of you for you to lose your weight the right way. I shouldn’t have said what I did. I love you soooo much. I’m with you every step of the way as well. Don’t give up stay strong. I know you can do it.
I put them together because they both have to do with weight, people are self conscious as am I. It doesn’t matter how great your relationship is with another person you don’t talk about that stuff. I hate losing people and I don’t my poor choice in words. I’m scared that I’, fucking up two relationships with two people that I love to death. I really need to watch what I say.
I’m sooooo sorry